The Scenario
Married to not only your spouse, but also his whole extended family. You have to entertain the all of your and his relatives. Gossip, problems, argument, issue regarding your family or your spouse’s family. You decide to buy a house to avoid more problems. Little that you know that the house cost you a bomb. Tied down everything you have. Your government sucks. Every single item’s price keep on increasing but your income remained the same. Your debt’s amount grows exponentially. And worst, you discover you are pregnant. You merely can support yourself, more over another person. You’re a mom now, spending every single damn thing you have on your kids. They strained away all your energy, money, and time. Your work harder and harder to provide a better life to the family but there’s always not enough. Sooner or later, you realize time and age is catching up. You don’t remember the last time you are relaxing? You forgot the last time you spoke to your best friend. You have spent the rest of your life, contributing to your family. Finally, when you have time to think about yourself, or plan to do something for yourself, you no longer have the passion and energy. Then you start to regret and curse yourself why you choose your path this way? What a pathetic life!!
I certainly do not wish to end up being like that. I mean of course that might not be the worst scenario but if I would ever have a life that like, I won’t die peacefully. I have not even seen the real world yet. I still wanted to enjoy my singlehood and wish to prolong it until I’m ready to take the responsibility to be part of his family. It freaks me out whenever it crosses my mind. No, he didn’t propose. Not at the moment. I really hope he won’t for the time being. Or, at least until I know what am I going to do for the rest of my life. I know I am selfish. I don’t deny this fact. Why can’t I? After all, I am the one who suppose to choose what I want in my life. I don’t need people to tell me what I should do when they already done at my age? That is your choices, not mine. And if I choose not to comment on you, please treat me they way I treat you. If not, just fuck off and mend with your own life.
P/S: How I wish I could just convey my humble thought to that someone. But, all I can do is just smile politely. There is no such thing called freedom of speech, especially to those “old school” thinking people. Ops! I started to love the word, old school.
Married to not only your spouse, but also his whole extended family. You have to entertain the all of your and his relatives. Gossip, problems, argument, issue regarding your family or your spouse’s family. You decide to buy a house to avoid more problems. Little that you know that the house cost you a bomb. Tied down everything you have. Your government sucks. Every single item’s price keep on increasing but your income remained the same. Your debt’s amount grows exponentially. And worst, you discover you are pregnant. You merely can support yourself, more over another person. You’re a mom now, spending every single damn thing you have on your kids. They strained away all your energy, money, and time. Your work harder and harder to provide a better life to the family but there’s always not enough. Sooner or later, you realize time and age is catching up. You don’t remember the last time you are relaxing? You forgot the last time you spoke to your best friend. You have spent the rest of your life, contributing to your family. Finally, when you have time to think about yourself, or plan to do something for yourself, you no longer have the passion and energy. Then you start to regret and curse yourself why you choose your path this way? What a pathetic life!!
I certainly do not wish to end up being like that. I mean of course that might not be the worst scenario but if I would ever have a life that like, I won’t die peacefully. I have not even seen the real world yet. I still wanted to enjoy my singlehood and wish to prolong it until I’m ready to take the responsibility to be part of his family. It freaks me out whenever it crosses my mind. No, he didn’t propose. Not at the moment. I really hope he won’t for the time being. Or, at least until I know what am I going to do for the rest of my life. I know I am selfish. I don’t deny this fact. Why can’t I? After all, I am the one who suppose to choose what I want in my life. I don’t need people to tell me what I should do when they already done at my age? That is your choices, not mine. And if I choose not to comment on you, please treat me they way I treat you. If not, just fuck off and mend with your own life.
P/S: How I wish I could just convey my humble thought to that someone. But, all I can do is just smile politely. There is no such thing called freedom of speech, especially to those “old school” thinking people. Ops! I started to love the word, old school.
2 comments:
omg! I AM ITCHING TO KNOW WHO THAT SOMEONE IS!!! WOOT WOOT! old school! KAKAKAK my bet it must be someone from the GOLDEN ERA!! hahahahahah
all i can say is.. secret.. lol
old school ppl identity can't be revealed.
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