cupcake attemp #1: failed

My first attempt to bake cupcake/muffin failed. Not really that terrible after all as it still looks like cupcake/muffin. I have no idea what’s goes wrong as I have been following the recipe exactly as what it stated. Ok. Maybe the banana side I added a little bit more compare to the recipe. It taste just like banana cupcake but it’s not as soft as I assume it to be. It’s texture is so filled and not spongy. Sad. Sad.

But the picture look damn nice leh... lol..

I’ll try to bake choc chip choc muffin next time. I don’t think this time will fail again cos I plan to use the ready-made choc cake package and modify it to cupcake size. lol. I figure out people tends to eat more smaller size cake, i.e. the cupcake than one big cake. lol. My not longer so called secret way to force people to finish up my “creation”.

Book talk

The day before yesterday, I receive a call from mph. I did online purchase the other day. They inform me that I might not be able to receive my book on time on Sept as one of the book that I order is currently out of stock and re-order need to take 5-6 weeks time. And she mention that since they only do one time shipment, I have not choice but to accept the fact that I can’t get my book until probably Oct. wtf. I guess by the time I receive my books, probably I would have totally forgot about this purchase.

I’ve just finished reading The Gift by Cecilia Ahern. Unpredictable ending but still it’s a nice book. The summary excerpt online: This is a story about people who not unlike parcels, hide secrets. They cover themselves in layers until the right person unwraps them and discovers what's inside.Sometimes you have to be unravelled in order to find out who you really are. For Lou Suffern, that took time. I have the whole collection of Cecilia books and waiting for discounted price for her latest book, The Book of Tomorrow. In case she doesn’t sound familiar to you, she is the writer of the book P.S. I Love You, which later being adapted into film with the same name, starred Hilary Swank and Gerard Butler (how come he so handsome de?). I read the book before I watch the movie. I still prefer plot written rather than filmed. Of all the books by Cecelia, I love Where Rainbows End. I love the way she arrange the plot of the story. Must read!!

Currently, I resume my reading on Beat the Reaper by Josh Bazell. Reason why I stop halfway is because I find it hard to understand a lot of terms he used in the book. It is not a book that I would usually buy but no harm reading something new. My usual purchase would be chic lit. J Ok, the actual reason I bought it because I can get 2nd book 50% discount. I know I know.

I bought the completed collection for Shopaholic series during the MPH Book Fare even though I have read the book. Well, you might not know when you are damn freaking free and feel like re-read again. You will never wanted to put down the books even you re-read them. Addicted to Sophie Kinsella’s books. Can’t wait for the new mini-Shopaholic.

This is also quite random. I have no idea why I bought his book. Mitch Albom. I read The Five People You Meet in Heaven before reading his best seller, which later adapted to film Tuesdays with Moorie. Tuesdays with Morrie is based on his real life story with his dear professor. I learned a lot of lesson bout life and death from reading this. Mitch’s writing style mostly touches on life, death matters. Highly recommended to read when you are in emo state. It did help me to see things in different perspective.

Lastly, I’m gonna talk about my Sidney Sheldon collection. I have successfully bought the whole collection. I love all the books. He is a superb writer. Must READ!! But unfortunately, that sickening, idiotic, irresponsible, fugly, lazy, liar ex-housemate lost one of my books and ruins my perfect complete collection. She denied that when I confronted her. She even lost my One Tree Hill Season 2. I have no idea why this kind of sickening asshole exsist in this world. Called herself professional that work in PWC? Puik. Just like a parasite to the company, the whole Malaysia, the whole world and universe.

My next book in my to read list is Dan Brown, Deception Point. Hopefully I can understand and like his book. Then I can buy the whole collection as well. The reason I bought the book is because I like the movie Da Vinci Code and Angels & Demon. Well, hopefully that his books are as good as the movies. Can’t wait.

Anyway, Shoni recommended The Fidelity Files by Jessica Brody. I read the first chapter online and felt in love instantly. Since Shoni have the book, I’m going to borrow from her. Besides, there is a sequel for this book, The Good Girl’s Guide to Bad Man. Without thinking twice, I bought this book online. But damn. This is the book that out of stock and need to re-order and caused the books delivery schedule to be delayed. Arrgghh. Somehow, Jessica has another new book, The Karma Club. I almost order it from Betterworldbooks. The whole book cost including delivery only approximately RM70++. I’m not sure if it’s cheap but usually new book price for best selling books about the same. DD forbids me to buy it and ask me to wait till it release in M’sia. If the price is the same as the online price plus delivery, I’m going to kill him. lol. He means good as I’m impulsive buyer who can’t seem to accept the fact that I’m actually in huge debt.

As I was freaking free, I come across a book with funny title. Skinny Bastard: A Kick-in-the-ass for Real Men Who Want to Stop Being Fat & Start Getting Buff. Don't you think it's funny? I was actually thinking, this must be a good book. Shall I??

IFF

If and only if I want to, I could write a hate post dedicated only to u. The length would be infinity.

........ It shows how much I HATE ABOUT YOU.

Well, you don't deserve a hate post from me actually cos it's not worth my space, time and energy.

You have make a big mistake for choosing to mess with woman, espcially woman like me. *evil laughing.

New books..

Edit: I know why I need to wait until September to receive my book. One of the book that I order is pre-order, not available until that time. And guess what, it's the latest shopaholic series by Sophie Kinsella. Wow. Can't wait till I get the book. ^o^

I am so damn freaking free till I have nothing better to do but to surf the net. I’m not sure how I manage to stumble across MPHonline. And some of the books in my to wish list are pretty cheap. There is discount up to 50% if you purchase it online. Of course I won’t just leave without purchasing something. They provide free delivery services within Klang valley with minimum purchase of RM150. Being the greedy and kiasu me, I quickly sign up and bought 5 books that cost me RM166.70. While making for the payment, I got a message that says my credit card has been blocked. wft. But then the website still captured the order. Not sure if the payment is being process or what, I proceed to call the bank. Heck. I hate calling tele-banking hotline. Makes me wait for ages before I can speak to a tele-banker. I was informed no transaction was made so far for the day. Then I proceed to re-order my books again. Yes. RE-ORDER the same thing. Why can’t they just have the system where you can re-edit it rather than to re-do all over again. What if I bought like 10 books? Then ma need to re-click again 10 times. Haih. Anyway, after the transaction successful, I re-check the order and discover that, the earliest delivery date is on September. wtf. I need to wait 3 months for that??? Might as well I just go to MPH and buy it on the spot. Ish… ish…

happy, sad, broke = mixed feeling

I still can’t believe that I’m actually did that. I don’t even recall why on earth did I want to buy that from the first place. When there is something I wish to have or want it quite badly at that very moment, I will do whatever it takes to make it possible. And as usual, I never actually see the after-math after my impulse decision. Still, I am happy and glad that I’ve made the decision. And thanks to two little evil (I regard them as evil cos they sort of influence my judgment during the short phone call). Two little devil are actually kind devil whom kind enough to tell me regarding the special promo at their place for I have inform them my intention to get a new “baby” for myself. Will I regret? Better not at all. I am still waiting for the moment when I can finally see and touch my “baby” for the first them. Awaiting for little devil1 to come back.

I got myself into another huge debt due to my impulse buying of a camera that I have been restraint myself not to buy until I clear my old debt but I just can’t resist. The desire was too great that it overcome the temptation. I bought a Panasonic Lumix GF1. So, I shall have lots of nice picture from this moment on. lol.

I am officially RM3568.95 poorer. I need to re-pay little devil2 each month as he swipe the card on my behalf. lol. Feels bad cos don’t like the feeling of owing someone. But that’s what you ought to do when you are greedy and yet broke. lol. Even my situation is kind of bad, I am actually very excited and happy. More like I always feel delighted for no apparent reason. It’s the kind of feeling where you finally found out that you’re in love. lol. And DD started to scold me for my impulse decision to buy. He even warned me not ignored him after I get my baby. lol. Someone so jealous ooo. He predicts I will spend my free time playing with baby rather than to entertain him. My oh my.

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Last Friday, my mom called my sister and asked us to go back to Raub. I supposed to join the hot air balloon workshop on Saturday morning but then the organized postponed it due to bad weather. Shit. Need to postpone again. Ruin my mood only. Anyway, since I thought that I would attend the workshop, I told my sis to inform my mom that we will only be back on Saturday. But, in the end, we did went back cos we already plan to go back the week after that, to celebrate Father’s day. So, my siblings force me to call back and explain to my mom. And I got scolded because of that. So damn unfair. Why the heck am I being scolded? Just because I broke the bad news to her. It seems that the reason she want us to back because my grandma has been complaining about her leg pain and started to saying those stupid thing that she is going to die sooner or whatever damn shit. Don’t scold me for being mean but then my grandma has been behaving like a kid ever since my grandpa pass away. She must been very lonely when my parents went to work and start to get everyone attention by saying she gonna leave the world soon. Damn frustrating you know. Imagine, when you reach home and wanted a piece of mind. I don’t mind the small talk we had. Basically she just asks the same question over and over again and I just answer patiently. The problem is, my grandma only understands Hakka and my Hakka vocab is very limited. Whenever I came across question that I don’t even know how to answer, I’ll choose to keep quiet. And then she will start her tantrum. It pissed me off sometimes, ok, most of the time. So, usually, I will just ask my brother to entertain her, as I’m not really good at handling this kind of stuff. I just don’t understand, we are not the only grandchildren she had. I have lots of cousin sister and brother whom are still young and schooling at Raub. Why can’t my mom contact them to accompany my grandma sometimes? They’re just staying in the same neighborhood. For god sake, my mom rather called us and sort of forced us to travel so far just to be a filial granddaughter/ grandson. The other annoying things that deter me to go back to my own home are the feud between each family. My mom likes to complain and comment about my uncle’s and the family member. They have been competing with each other ever since I was born. All of us used to stay in my current house but due to argument, disagreement and dissatisfaction, one by one, each family moved out from the house. I always thought that after my uncle’s are out from the house, the gossip and everything will just end there but I was so wrong. I was still fed with anger and dissatisfaction from my mom from time to time. Sometimes, it really saddens me. I love my mom, my grandma and everyone in the family. But somehow, they are the one that hurt my feeling the most. :(

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Last Saturday, went out to have a look at the camera. Actually I don’t plan to get it but then I can’t resist not thinking bout it. So, finding all the available excuses, DD and I went out eventually. We were so lazy to go till Low Yat or Pudu Plaza (suggested by Kmeng), so we just went to Jusco Equine. As expected, we didn’t get to see the real thing cos the all the shops we went doesn’t sell that model. Instead, we went to Jusco supermarket to buy groceries. Unsatisfied, I drag DD to go to Puchong to see if I can have any chance to see it. Went to lelong.com shop but it was closed that time. A bit disappointed, I reluctantly went back. It was pretty hot out there and I have no mood to find any shop around that area anymore. My dreams of having it come true when two little devils called when I was reach home and watching my TVB series, “Mysteries of Love”. Btw, the TVB drama that I’m watching at that time damn nice. Have some resemblance to CSI. Best of all, Raymond Lam acting. Not sure how to judge his acting skill. Even if it’s bad, he’s handsome. So, everything else doesn’t matter. lol.

The fall

Last Saturday wasn’t my lucky. I could save all the embarrassment and awkwardness that bestow upon me but unfortunately I’ve made the wrong decision by going out of my comfort zone. A very wrong CHOICE indeed.

I was looking for my parents and sister as I’ve wandered off to check on the shoes while they proceed to Jusco. It was so crowded inside Jusco. Probably because of some sales going on. I wasn’t paying full attention to what’s in front of me as I’m busy looking at those evil things on the rack. Gasp. It’s been a while since I did my shopping. :(

Well, that not the point I’m gonna mention anyway. The point is, it was damn bloody crowded in there, and while I was making my way out from the store, someone knock me down till I almost, ALMOST lying flat on the floor. Thank god not face down. Wtf.

Apparently, that stupid mom was holding her child high up, where the child head position is the same level as mine. With that pose, the child is capable of blocking the front and side view of the mom. I guess that idiot is expecting people to see her and “avoid” into bumping into her. Obviously, in this case here, I didn’t SEE her or have enough respond time to AVOID her. While stupid mom adjusting the child position (based on my assumption and deduction), she forgot the fact that the place is quite packed with others patron and ACCIDENTALLY caused her child head to knock into mine. And another un-expecting thing that could occur to her that, the VICTIM, a.k.a me can fall down ALMOST FLAT on the floor due to the impact. Why ALMOST FLAT? Well, if it’s not because I was holding DD’s hand as strong as I could, my head would just hit that damn floor and probably won’t even recognize myself (worst case scenario). My thin and fragile buttock hit the floor. It was so damn bloody painful and embarrass. All I could think of at that moment is to elope from that place asap but I couldn’t. After the impact, I felt a bit dizzy and barely can stand straight. And the pain is too unbearable that tears starts to flow out from my eyes. As I was wiping my tears, I could see my “audience”. FML MAX.

And what happen to the stupid mom and child? THEY ARE FINE. Because, after the impact, the mom just stood there without stepping back an inch. The child didn’t give out any cried until much later when I scream out my pain. That child reaction very slow, just like the stupid mom. Which means… THEY DIDN’T FELT ANY MAJOR IMPACT AT ALL. Walau eh, that stupid head made from steel one isn’t? wtf. It’s unbelievable.

Lesson for the day:
1) AVIOD any crowded places at all cost.
2) Don’t go out during public holiday

3) Be a smart mom (when I have my own child)

I love dried mango (must fresh from cebu)

This so far the best dried mangoes that I've tried before. From Cebu. So, anyone going to Philippines? Please buy one box for me. I'm serious...